Nerd Life

A Thousand Eyes Staring Back

In an age where everything surrounds smart phones and DVRs, many of us are still able to find time for human interactions. I am not one of these people.

Kind of.

I am not the type of person who feels they can’t be in public without a companion. As i write this, I find myself alone at a small table outside my favorite coffe shop contemplating change the name of my blog to something much more appropriate like “The Musings of a Distracted Mind” or “Vision is Not Validation”. I’ve never really been good with headlines and catchy phrases.

What are you doing tonight world? Do you find yourself enjoying a night at home? Or perhaps you’re sitting at a borrowed computer at a coffee shop next to other people wireless yet despondent? Maybe you’re on a smart phone, bored with the environment around you and felt like clicking random links. Wherever you are, I hope you’re having a good time, because we must be grateful to breathe if nothing else.

Hilda and I had a great talk of life experiences the other day. It made me realize that there’s still so much I haven’t experienced yet. I questioned if I’ve crossed out enough on my bucket list. I’m not where I thought I’d be after high school and sometimes – the smallest of occassions when I get nostalgic and think a little longer than I should – it flat out scares me. How do you make a Plan B when you were convinced Plan A couldn’t fail?

You put on your big girl/boy pants and deal with it, as a friend once told me. I’m trying, but Life’s thrown me one hell of a curve ball.

I think “Black & Gold” came at just the right time in my life.